things aint rite for a while.. 4th time that i was warn to be sack.. i know tat i was in the wrong for coming for band only in the afternoon.. the only reason was.. i wan to wait for the rest of the sec4s who are taking Os to come back together.. all my best buds are there.. of cos i will wait for them.. since then i don hav any mood to go for any band practices.. imaging.. u sitting in the section alone.. no frans.. pple can say other pple in the band are still ur frans.. but u can see.. u treat level of pple wif different kind of attitude.. i cannot really treat my juniors as a close fran.. only pple who are in the same level.. is easier for us to tok.. hmm..

i still hav 1 more year to go.. and only left me and pc who are seniors in the band.. in band.. only Normal acad pple.. come to sec4 ending than they will get the attention.. todae.. i went up to him to talk things out.. he told infront of the juniors.. saying if i am sack.. and they cannot go for SYF.. ask them to blame it on me.. Wat The Heck.. is like threatening me.. that too much.. he say that i not loyal all this.. i still can accept.. but blame everything on me.. that too much.. so i told my mum.. and she wan to tok to him.. when i ask him.. he told me all the loyalty stuff.. than i say yar we noe our mistake.. but y do u hav to say the blame me part infront of the juniors.. he answer back.. when did i say that.. and who told u so..

as wat i expected.. he will never admit that he said it before.. lucky i ask afew of my juniors of wat he says.. in the end he got nothing but admit.. saying yes i did say blame it on you.. but i was not wrong.. i hav the rite to blame it on u.. juz nice pc came over.. than he start pointing at pc and scold.. bloody shit.. than say wat.. he ask will u leave the band anytime.. i say maybe.. than he reply.. see ur heart is not wif the band already.. i feel like juz answering back.. i was never treated like a band member before.. all i noe is.. he is alway picking on us.. my seniors and so on who are usually from normal..only until this year ending.. than start treating us like 1.. wat for.. by then we really lose heart.. but at least we still come back.. if i dun like the band.. i will get a job and work wif my classmate.. my relationship wif my classmates are getting better now.. not like less time.. everytime they go out.. i got band band band.. and alway neglected them.. i dun mind being sack now.. more freedom.. seriously.. 4 times of warning.. muz well leave on my own.. i think i am the first 1 to get 4times of warning.. hahaha.. now dunno whether we still can go sec5 nex year.. haiz.. now only hav to wait for the results to come out than decide..

shall go get some rest now.. been a tiring dae.. hmm..

Verlirth gonE!~